May 22th, 2011

    Almost

May 19th, 2011

    There were virtually no classes throughout the whole day, but PASMUN was really intense and the debates were so tiring. I was able to play a leading role in this year's Security Council and I was able to debate fluently with the research I did. I hope tomorrow would be less tiring and hope I don't make a mistake that would mess everything up. I love her and I don't want anything to interfere between the two of us. I want to be with her forever and I want to give her everything that I can possible offer for her. I love her. I'm never going to let go.

May 18th, 2011

    The game today was again cancelled but the whole team had a good time playing basketball on the sixth flour. We played full court today and it was a pleasant afternoon. I didn't play too well today and I made lots of mistakes. I did great in the games after the full court practice. We were able to several games and most important of all, I was able to accomplish my goal. I was finally able to beat Young in an one on one game. It has been four years and I have finally accomplished my goal. I'm really going to bed. I'm so tired.

May 17th, 2011

    Nothing much really happened today and the day went by really quickly.

May 16th, 2011

    Today is quite a rough day for me. I didn't expect so many things to happen all at the same time. Basketball practice was not held today because of rain and I didn't get enough time to be with her. Things just didn't work out in school and I really didn't like that at all. I went home early today hoping that everything would turn out fine and I sincerely wished that things would go that way. I was wrong. I came home and I started doing my homework that eventually led into arguments with my mother. Things didn't work well and there was no way I could finish all the assignments that I have. I'm mad at my mom, worried about her, and not completing what I am supposed to do. Everything just sucks. I hope she is feeling better now.I'm really worried about her and I want her to get better.

May 15th, 2011

    Today is a really tiring tiring day. I had to wake up so early and I had to deal with somebody that wasn't in a good mood at all. I don't understand why, but I know she was really upset for some strange family issue. I hope she feels better now and I really want her to be happy. I'm really exhausted when she is not in a good mood because I always have to worry about her. I haven't studied for my AP Psychology final yet and I better get going doing that. I have plenty of time tomorrow during school hour so I think I can make it through the test. Let me just hope that everything will be fine and that everything will work out as I wish it does.

May 12th, 2011

    Basketball is basically everything that I did today. I played basketball throughout the whole afternoon today and I basically left this morning blank. I'm finally done with all my APs and I finally feel the pressure relieved. All I want to do for now is enjoy my life and not be bothered by anything. I want to play basketball, I want to relax all of my time, and I want to be with her as much as I can. I have to admit, this afternoon is amazing. I had a great time and I hope she did as well. I don't want to make up any homework or take anymore tests. I just want to graduate with safe grades and then go to college, finish college, get a job, and marry her. I love her and I'm not going to give her up. No matter what price I will have to pay.

May 11th, 2011

    Sleeping at one in the morning before an AP English exam is not a good idea. I have to admit that that was something really stupid to do. I think I did pretty well on the exam because the multiple choice questions seemed to be easier than they were on the practice exams that we did during class. We went out for lunch after the exam and I went back to school to take another tests, my AP psychology unit test. I couldn't go to practice today because I had Korean class in the evening. I really wanted to play ball today because there was good weather and we were running full court. I guess I will just have to make up some other time.

May 10th, 2011

    The AP Government exam is finally over and the AP English is finally coming up. The Government exam was pretty difficult and there were some rather surprising questions on the test. I missed out on some information on the free response questions. There were so many free response questions and my hand is still sore from the writing we did this afternoon. I must get read for the AP English exam tomorrow because I know that I will need to focus on that test. The reading is hard and the information is hard to derive. I want to get a five on my English exam. I really want a five because that would make legend at Pacific American School for myself.

May 9th, 2011

    The AP Government exam is coming up in the next few hours. I'm getting really nervous about this test because I heard that the essay structure of the exam is different that the other APs that I have taken in the past. I hope I can get at least a four on this exam because a four is the requirement for me to wave of credit at university. Whatever the test may be like, I just hope that there is nothing too special in it. I'm going to sleep early today. I don't want to fall asleep or miss out on any questions during the test.

May 8th, 2011

    Nothing much to say today. There is only one more day left before the AP government exam and I have no idea how things are going to be on the test. I just hope that the test will be fine and that I can do well on it. There is so much information that I have to remember and the systems are so similar that I get confused very easily by the information. I hope I don't miss out anything about any information regarding the political systems of each individual nation. I have to be honest about not studying for the test at all. I'm just hoping for the best and I really wish I could get the best I possibly can. Luck is everything for me right now and I really need it.

May 5th, 2011

    I finally understand how much work I still have to make up. There are two more AP exams that I have to take and there are three finals exams that I have to take. There are so many notes that I have to complete and there are also a few projects that I have to do. I also have a whole pile of AP Calculus homework that I have to make up if I want to improve my grade. I really don't think I have time to finish the AP Calculus homework, there is just too much. I need to catch up on some things. I want to finish the note for Nigeria and I also want to finish the European History poster. I need to finish those two assignments today so that I am able to finish all the other ones before the final exams.

May 4th, 2011

    That was a really, really hard test. I didn't imagine that the test was going to be this hard. I really failed that test and I really need to finish those notes and the poster that I have to do. I'm going to make everything up so that my grades don't fall too low. I feel pressure now. There are still two more AP exams I need to take and there are three more final exams along with lots of homework that I have to do. I need to get some more sleep today. It is going to be a long day tomorrow and I really need to save up energy to accompany her.

May 3rd, 2011

    People are really nervous today because it is the AP Calculus Exam tomorrow. There are so many people taking the exam and they really do want to do well on that test. I was in Calculus class today and they atmosphere was really low. I wish them good luck on their exam tomorrow. There was nothing much that happened in school today and I really felt relaxed. I changed my mind when I got home. There is a government unit exam tomorrow along with notes and a poster that are due. I don't want to do any of it and I just want to let it pass like that. Let's just hope the test isn't that hard.

May 2nd, 2011

    The AP Psychology test was a little different then I expected it to be and I don't think I can score more than a three on this exam. There were so many questions that I did not understand and there were so many terms that weren't even mentioned in class. I really wonder if I will score another one on the exam and I really don't know how I am supposed to face all my classmates, my teachers, and Miss Pamela if that happens. Somebody help me and tell me that I did well on that test. Well, time after the test was awesome, I didn't go to practice and I spent all my time with her.

May 1st, 2011

    One day before the AP Psychology exam and I haven't prepared for the test at all. I'm really worried that I will mess up this test just like I messed up my AP Chemistry exam one year ago. I don't know if I will be able to score more than a three on the AP Psychology exam because I haven't paid much attention during class periods. I really need a good score on the AP exams I'm taking this year because they are related to my college majors. I also need to pass these test because I need them to wave off college credit. Please, let me pass.

April 28th, 2011

    Basketball and her mind-holding smell. The gentle touch and the passion between us. I have to say, today is one of the best days in my life. So many things happened yet I only remember the time that I spent with her. I would spend the rest of my life with her even if I have to give up everything that I have right now. She has become the center of my life and I can no longer take my eyes off of her. I love her and I love her a lot. Stay with me and never let me go. This is a really long day for me because I really miss the time we spent together. I hope she feels the same.

April 27th, 2011

    Nothing much happened today. We had a game and I had an argument with her. It wasn't a good day for me today. I started the day off half asleep and I failed my AP English unit exam. The structure of the essay was horrible and the questioned was not answered. I hope I can survive through this test. I don't want my AP English grade to drop. The game was horrible. We lost terribly and we lost because we had no determination to win. The results of the game destroyed our will to continue playing, but I really do want to win. We have to win the game we have next week. We cannot afford to lose again. We went into an argument but we soon solved everything. I hope our relationship doesn't change because of this.

April 26th, 2011

    I'm getting really annoyed at how things are becoming right now. We have to go to so many classes and there are so many things that we have to do in order to catch up with all of our work. The AP exams are pressing us and we don't have much time left. I really don't know how I should face the exams and face the whole pile of things that are coming up, but I know that we will be together and support each other through. I have to go to bed now. I have a basketball game I have to deal with tomorrow. I need rest and I need her support.

April 25th, 2011

    I'm tired!!!! I can't believe that practice today can be this tiring. My legs are sore, my arms are pulled, and I'm having a headache. I want to go to bed right now but I have so much homework that I have to make up and I have to do. I have so much psychology notes that I have to do and I also have so many European history notes that I have to complete. I need to work really hard. I'm also facing some trouble with Calculus. I haven't handed in my homework since the third quarter yet I lied to my mom. Now my mom wants me to get a note saying that I did all my homework. This is really troublesome and I don't want to deal with this issue at all.

April 24th, 2011

    Nothing much happened today and I don't know what else I can do. I have so much homework and the AP Exams are coming up very soon. Despite so many things that are pressing on me, I still don't want to do anything and I don't even care about the exams. There must be something wrong in my mind. I don't want to do any prep-work and I don't want to study anything. I have three exams that I have to prepare for and I know I can do really well in one of them, but I don't know what I will do for the other two exams. No matter how I try, I just don't understand why I can't focus. It's not because of her, it's me that is the problem.

April 21st, 2011

    Disappointment, anger, and regret rushed into me when the game ended today. We lost again and we lost because of many stupid reasons that shouldn't have occurred. People were not willing to play and we made several stupid mistakes during the game. We had the energy and the will, but we didn't have our minds ready to think and do what is best for us all. We lost by three points and I really regret not being able to change the situation during the overtime. What was lost was lost. All I have to do now is get ready for our next game. I really don't know what I could do, but I know that I will keep playing. I will keep playing just because she is there to support me. I love here and I know that she will always be there. Thank you a lot and I want you to know I will love you forever.

April 20th, 2011

    Today was full of weird dreams because most of my time today was spent sleeping, whether I was in class or not. I slept through government, English, psychology, and even my study hall. I'm really tired this week and I don't know why. I have basketball game tomorrow and I really need to win this game. I cannot let my team down again. I don't want to go to class tomorrow. All I want to do is sleep, relax my body, and win the game. I need her support and I need her to be with me before the game so that I can get ready mentally.

April 19th, 2011

    Classes have not been going to well today because I am exhausted today and I didn't have the spirit to do anything. I'm also very mad at how things are going. Today was supposed to be a perfect day, but now everything is messed up. I understand why you don't want me to get too close to you during school hours, but I do not understand why I can't even be with you after school. I'm really upset. It's not me that you should be worried about. If you have something that you don't like or you don't want me to do, just tell me. Why find other reasons to push me away and why feel guilt about rejecting me? I don't understand. I really don't.

April 18th, 2011

    Today is as horrible as it can be and there is nobody I can blame for this horrible day. Shit is happening all around me and there is nothing I can do about it. I got so mad today that I just went out of school and drank for the day. I did really bad in basketball practice today because I was drunk most of the time. Why does fate always have to play a hand on us? Why does it have to be us that destiny picks on? I ask these questions over and over again yet I still don't have an answer. I'm doing pretty well in all of my classes, but she is not doing very well. Even Miss Pamela came to find me and talk to me about her situation. Things are going too well and I really don't like how things are. I want to be with her forever.

April 17th, 2011

    What a relaxing weekend with so much homework. Well, it is a relaxing weekend because I didn't do any of the work I was supposed to do. Things are going very well for me because I'm tired and I don't want to do anything at all while there are so many things that are awaiting me. I just want to stay with her. I want to spend all of my time with her. I can't find anything that can cause me to raise my interest anymore. This may sound irresponsible, but I need school work to be more interesting than other things such as basketball. Nothing can be more interesting than her, well, that has to be true after all. My brain is not functioning properly right now. I better go study for my tests tomorrow.

April 14th, 2011

    Today was awfully exhausting. I've played basketball for three hours straight today and I'm really tired. I've injured so many places today that I hope that I could just fall down and die. I've injured my ankle, my legs, my knees, my back, and my lungs today. I can't breath properly and I can't walk properly. I have so much shit that I have to do tomorrow that I can't go to sleep to night. I got to finish some AP Calculus shit and I have to prepare for a unit exam for AP European history. There are also three units of notes that I have to complete before I can get myself ready for the test and that I have to hand in. I don't want to go to practice tomorrow. I want to be with her. I want to spend more time with her.

April 13th, 2011

    Today wasn't as well as I thought it would be. I was so tired and couldn't keep my mind awake when I was doing anything today. I was almost completely out of conscious during English class and I almost fell asleep during psychology class. It was a really painful day and I wasn't in a good mood for most of the day. I didn't spend any time with her today and I fell absolutely awful. I hate it when it comes to be the fact that we have no time together and we can't do anything together. I really hoped for our situation to change, but nothing seems to be able to change it. Today's basketball practice was exhausting. I'm never going to be that tired again.

April 12th, 2011

    Things are getting easier for me right now. I have finished all of the midterms and most of my grades have stabilized. I think my grades won't be too bad and I believe I can safely graduate from high school right now. I have a few more unit tests coming up recently and I will be facing my AP Exams pretty soon. I hope everything works out for me. The senior class took our graduation photos today and we went out of school for some fun. I also spent some time with her this afternoon and I really loved it. I should be more careful and gentle next time because I'm afraid I'll hurt her. Basketball practice? Mayb.

April 11th, 2011

    I don't know why I feel this way, but I'm really tired and I really hate what life is doing to us. We never get a chance to be alone because there is always something that would intervene between us. It is either some unexpected event or somebody that just has nothing to do. I hate life and I hate destiny for not letting us spend more time with each other, but I thank them for letting us be together. I need her and I really love her a lot. I hate it when somebody says that she will give up anything about something and then intervenes into the thing again. The first day of school was quite different from what I had expected, but things are still going well. I want to spend more time with her, a lot more time.

April 10th, 2011

    Things are not going well for me at all. I've just lost my chance to go to university in the United States. My mom was very upset about my score on unit tests in school and she said I didn't deserve to go to college. I know I didn't study much during this time and I know I had a bad study attitude, so I think I deserve what I get. Maybe things have changed for me, but I know that we will still be together forever. I finally completed all of my midterms today and I am really happy about it. I think I did really well on the tests and I believe that I can raise my grades. I really hope that I can get Bs on all of my classes. I need those Bs and I want to keep my grades as they were before. I need to prove my mother wrong. I can do well.

April 7th, 2011

    Today was a complete change for me. I have finally started doing some of the homework I have and I have finished studying for my AP Psychology midterm. I feel pretty happy about this and I don't want to slack off anymore. I've done pretty well on my psychology tests, at least better than the other two subjects that I have to take during the break. I feel dissappointed at myself for slacking off so much during all this time and I really want to make it all up. Things are going well between us, but I'm keeping her up really, really late. I don't like that at all. I want her to take of herself more and I want her to be happy. I swear I won't let her down. Not once in my life again.

April 6th, 2011

    I'm starting to worry right now. I haven't done any homework and I haven't studied for any of my tests during the whole break. I starting to worry that I won't get good grades on the midterms and that I will fail all of my classes. I really need to study for the following two days so that I can safely graduate from high school and not mess up my life. I spent a pretty good afternoon with her today and we discussed lots of things together I really want to be with her for the rest of my life. I love her and I will love her forever. She really needs to get more rest and get more sleep. She is making me really worried.

April 5th, 2011

     Today was strange. I was not a disappointment to my parents, but to my family. Today was tomb sweeping day for my family, but I didn't show up and I didn't go to the family dining period. I think I was completely horrible today. I really need to get up earlier, study harder, and complete what I have missed in previous classes. I completely missed out time spent with her today and I've kept her waiting again. I really need to improve and become a better man. I love her so much and I don't want her to suffer for me. This is just not correct.

April 4th, 2011

    Things aren't going too well today. I still haven't done any studying and I really don't know if this is good. I have so much I have to do over this break and I have achieved so little it is pathetic. I really need to work harder and get off the addiction on things that I shouldn't be addicted on. This would make my life much easier and my parents would be way happier then they are now. I hope I could be a better child, but it seems like I always disappoint my parents one way or another. I hope I can graduate from university without having them worry about me too much. I hope I can take her as my wife, just like we said. I love her very, very much and I will love her for the rest of my life.

April 3rd, 2011

    This vacation is pretty dull and there is really nothing that can be done about it. All that I can do in this break is prepare for college, prepare for my midterms, and prepare for the AP exams that are coming up. There is so much academic material that I have to cover and there is such little time for me to completely study all of them. I want to spend more time with her and I really want to be with her every moment of my life. It seems I don't have much time to spend with her during this vacation. She is uncomfortable and her parents won't allow her to go out anyways. I hope she feels better. I'm really, really worried about her and I can't think about anything else.

March 31th, 2011

    What an amazing day. Things didn't do too well for me today and I didn't want it to be as it was. I was supposed to wake up and go to school today, but things didn't work out as they were supposed to be. I woke up today realizing that it was three in the afternoon and I was really shocked. Nobody called me up today and I had to go to a basketball game in five minutes from three. It was horrible. I made it to the game and I played fairly well, but we still lost the game. I didn't see her today and I really regret it. I don't ever want to miss a chance to see her and be with her again. I just absolutely hate it. I love her and I want to be with her. I'm never going to miss out any chance I have to be with her again.

March 30th, 2011

    Wow. That AP English exam was surely terrifying. The passages were so hard and there were so many questions that I did not understand. I really wish I could retake that test with more time. The test was very intense and I thought I would not have finish the essay. I wish I don't mess up this test. This is one of the most important tests I have right not and I need it to keep my GPA up. I also have to prepare for three more midterms during the break. If I fail any one of those, then I don't think it would be possible for me to graduate from high school. I really need to work harder.
     Game day tomorrow. Tomorrow is the last day of school and we have a basketball game. That's a bit weird but we still have to do our best in the game. This game is one of the last games that we will play and I think it would be very important to us. We really need a victory.

March 29th, 2011

    There are so many tests and there is so much homework that I have to do. I still have four midterms that I have to take and a lot of homework that needs to be handed in. I have to do so much homework and prepare for so many things, which is really overwhelming to me. On top of that, I have to worry about getting low grades in every class. I'm missing a lot of assignments for calculus, I'm not doing well on test for government and European history, and I'm barely passing by for psychology and English.
    Even though I have so much stuff, I still had to practice basketball. Basketball went well today and things after that went well to. I love her so much and I really cannot resist her.

March 28th, 2011

    First day back at school was quite different than I thought it would be. We were all really, really tired and it was very hard to keep our heads up. I cannot believe how hard it was to keep my conscious awake. It was like fighting the sleep devil every second I was in class. Even though sleep tried to catch us every moment we were off guard, things went pretty well. The government test was not as hard as I thought it would be and things seem to be back on track again. I finally know how much I have to face right now. There are so many unit tests and so many midterms that I have to complete before Prom. I have to practice for the basketball game while also managing my time doing homework. Most important of all, I have to spend time with her. Finally back, finally able to see her and feel her presence again. I will love her forever.

March 27th, 2011

    Finally back in Taiwan and finally time to face schoolwork. I'm so tired I could fall asleep any second right now, but I know I can't do that. I have so much homework that I have to make up and I have so many tests that I have to prepare for. I'm very worried about my AP European History,  AP Psychology, AP calculus, and AP Government grades. I haven't been working hard enough on them and I believe I have to work harder in order to keep my grades as they were before. Now I think I have to work even harder than just hard. I just knew that I had a test on China for my AP Government class first thing tomorrow morning. I really need some luck and I really need help from other people. I hope that I can get through this crisis safely, I don't want any of my grades to drop. I need to keep up my grades because I want to be somebody that can be on the same level as her.

March 17th, 2011

    Why do things have to be so complicated? Why are there so many tricks that destiny can play on us? I hate how destiny can change something great to something terrible in a few seconds. I hate how destiny like to play around with us. Letting us see things that are not going to come in the future then letting us down. Fate and destiny always play around with our lives and they always seem to let us down. Even in the worst condition that someone could ever imagine, there is always a hope, a determination that will appear and change the circumstances. I wish she makes it through this critical stage of her life and I will do anything to help her get through. I love her and I am willing to do anything to help.

March 16th, 2011

    I can't believe today is such a tiring day. There is so much material that I have to take in from AP Government and AP Psychology. We did a lot of work in AP English today and I have to redo one of my essays because I lost the file while I was saving the document. I also have to finish all of my Model United Nations work before I go to school tomorrow. I have to write a speech on the situation in Yemen and another speech on the situation in Kyrgyzstan. I have to catch up with current events that are going on in the two countries and I have to think of some solutions really quickly. I'm losing confidence in a lot of things recently, even some of the things that are most important to me right now.

March 15th, 2011

    Today is wonderful, somewhat wonderful. Both the boy's team and the girl's team won their games today! Though they were tight games, both teams fought to the very end and both teams were able to win. It was a very difficult game for me today because I hurt my back very severely Yesterday. I thought I wasn't able to play today, but I made it to the game. I went to a Chinese doctor first thing in the morning today and went through a hellish experience. It was really, really painful. The pain I endured worked. My back was greatly cured and I was able to move my body again, but my right leg was dead. I wasn't able to walk until three in the afternoon and I was deeply troubled about playing in the game or not. I made my choice and I played in that game. It paid off. We won the game. I'm so tired right now. I really want to go to sleep.

March 14th, 2011

    That was a horrible fall today. The right side of my body is now destroyed and I don't know if I can play in tomorrow's game. This is really bad. So many of our players can't play and so many of them haven't been practicing for quite some time. Tomorrow's game is going to be a slaughter. I can't believe that I have fallen to such a low level of desire and spirit. I really need to pick up on my homework and I really need to work harder. Maybe I shouldn't have taken so many AP courses or maybe I shouldn't have devoted so much of my time on other things. Well, I feel slightly better now since I no longer have to take two of the five APs that I once had. I need to worker harder and catch up on my homework now. Even if I no longer need to sleep for the whole week.

March 13th, 2011

    Things aren't going too well for me recently. There are so many things that I have to do and I have such little time. It is always time that I am complaining about. I have to leave the country in five days and I have so many tests and so much homework that I have to do before I leave. I also have to get the packing for Russia done this weekend. There are so many items that I have to bring with me. My whole luggage is full and there are still more clothes that I have to bring to Russia. I'm really going to fail my classes if I don't work harder. I really need to work harder on my European History and my Calculus classes, they are really hard and I am really lacking the motivation for the homework that is assigned. What is going on with me? I really don't know and I really don't want to know because it is going to a horrible excuse that I have.

March 10th, 2011

    I don't know why people can't control the flow of time, but I do know that I would love to control time as I want it to be like. Don't even plan to far ahead in life because you never know what you have to face on your path and you never know when you need to change your plans. Let your plans go and everything will be fine in the end. At least we have the ability to settle everything down. It's been a long time since I've listened to some good music. I can barely remember the power music gives me. I feel more comfortable now. More cold-blooded and more focused. I want to win and I want to take control. I'm willing to pay any price to win. I'm going to force everything out so that I can take control. I hate living a life with somebody controlling every aspect of it. I'm going to break free and I'm going to remove anyone in my way.

March 9th, 2011

    I feel very upset right now. We don't spend enough time in school and we don't even have time after school has ended. Things are not going very well for us and I really don't like how we have to be afraid of other people. We are taught to be unique and creative in our school, but the school also places limits on what we do and how we do things. Even if I face difficulties now, I love her and I will never give her up. We have so much to do in preparation for Russia and I have so much homework. I also have to go to school tomorrow to take an AP exam and I also have to get myself ready for the basketball game next week on the 15th.

March 8th, 2011

    Today is a really tiring day for me. The game was long and hard and I got into a little argument with her. I really want to do as she says but I'm slowly deviating away from what she wants me to do. I love her and I'll do everything her way. If that's something that she wants, I will try my best to do it. I'm really worried right now. She's on her bed and she doesn't have her blanket on. I'm worried that she will get a cold. I'm really worried. Today's game was pretty good. We lost by three points by a scored my career high. Eight points today. We should have won the game. We were so close to victory but it slipped by. I guess we just have to work harder.

March 7th, 2011

    Today was almost as relaxing as ever. I barely did any homework and I'm not even putting my head into class and school. All I want to do is to spend time with her and enjoy life. I really don't know what is going wrong inside me, but I do know that I really want to spend more time with her. All the time I have to spare is the time I want to spend with her. I just hope god is on our side. I need help, whatever sort of help that I can get.
    Now I'm really worried about my Calculus class. I haven't handed in many assignments and I really need to do better on my tests. I need help on CALCULUS. I feel kind of bad for letting my teachers down with bad grades. I must work harder, but it seems kind of hard.

March 6th, 2011

    Things happen suddenly and time is flying by. Why does time always seem to move faster when we are happy? Why can't we do anything about it? I wish I had the ability to change time and look through time. I made several mistake in my life and I finally see their consequences right now. If I had the chance to go back in time, I would have taken the other path. The path that would allow me to stay with her for a longer period of time. I love her. I don't ever want to leave her. I don't regret making my choice to be with her and I never will regret this.

March 3rd, 2011

    Wow! I never knew playing the drums was so hard, especially when you're playing with a whole group of people. Things come suddenly and you just have to deal with them. I've got to start practicing how to play with drum with other people. There are thirty five songs that I have to learn and I only have a few months to learn all of them. This is a real pain that I have to deal with. I have to prepare for MUN , practice basketball, do my academic work, and deal with my relationship issues. So much to do and so little to enjoy from.
    Things are really bad right now and I'm feeling a sense of change. Something is going to go wrong, but I don't know what it is. I tired, but I will endure all of this for one simple reason; it makes me feel as I have a purpose to live on. It is my reason for existence and I know that there is no way for me to give this up.

March 2nd, 2011

    I'm falling asleep and I'm seriously tired today. This sentence was typed 50 minutes after the first one. I fell asleep. I'm seriously tired today. Things just aren't going well for me this week. I have basketball practice, I have musical practice, I have five AP classes that I have to deal with, and I still have to worry about her a lot. Why isn't she picking up the phone right now? I'm pretty worried that she'll get into more trouble with her parents.
    I don't know what homework I have today, but I do know that there are a few assignments that I have to complete. I have AP Government, lot of AP Calculus, AP Psychology, AP English, and lot and lots of AP European History. I want to go to bed early today!!!! I really need a good sleep. I need a long and good sleep.

March 1st, 2011

    Today was a pretty tiring day and I think this week would be a pretty tiring week. I really don't want to do anything else except for sharing time with her and playing basketball. This doesn't feel like second semester of senior life and I really don't like the fact that things are going out of hand for the two of us. I really hate it when other people nose into the business of other people. Why do we have to suffer from the words of other people? Life isn't fair. I know it isn't. I just don't understand why it has to be us that life is unfair to. This is really painful. Even though times may seem difficult for us right now, I will love her forever and I don't ever want us to be separated.
    Essays, notes, and tests. There are so many assignments that I have to complete before tomorrow. To be more exact, before I go to bed. I better get going on the homework because I don't think I can make it before tomorrow.

February 28th, 2011

    Today was better than I thought, slightly better than I thought. We can still be together and I know for sure that we still love each other. Things aren't going as well because the juniors are getting more attention from Miss Pamela and the teachers. This means that we have to be more careful of our actions and the places that these actions occur. Things can't be as they were before and sometimes changes are necessary for continuation.
    I have so much calculus, again. I also have lots of other homework that I have to do and many tests that I have to prepare for. Things are going a bit over the limit and I don't think I can hold out very long. I have to get rid of all this homework and I want to rest. I want to stay with her and spend more time with her. I love you.

February 27th, 2011

    There is so much homework that I have to complete this weekend yet I have achieved so little. I still have three calculus assignments that I haven't started, I still have to make up the European History notes that I haven't handed in yet, and I still have to do the AP English essays. There's just so much that has to be done. I don't know why I feel so lazy this weekend, but I guess it's the basketball game on Friday that exhausted me. It wasn't that great a game and I didn't like the game at all. It was completely unreasonable and there was nothing I could do about it. I have to admit that I wasn't physically prepared for the game, but I knew what was going on. It's something that I still have to improve on, temper control.
    We're both tired and ill, yet homework is pushing down on us so much. I really can't handle the amount of homework I have. There is just so much. I hope I can quickly finish and quickly catch up with all the homework that I need to do. I'm really worried about her.

February 24th, 2011

    I really don't know why today is such a horrible day. She's experiencing extreme pain and I can't do anything about it. I feel really bad about this and I wish she gets better. I really hate not being able to help when she needs it. It makes me feel useless and she has to suffer even more. I got really mad at myself today for not being able to help her. I hate this feeling and I hate it a lot. I really don't want to go to the game tomorrow because I want to stay with her until she goes home. She needs to get more rest and her body is really weak right now. She has had a rough week and I don't want her to exhaust herself tomorrow.
    I love her and I don't want her to be unhappy. I don't want her to endure pain and I don't want her to worry over things she doesn't have to worry about. What can I do? Why am I so useless when she needs something from me? I want to know.

February 23rd, 2011

    It's 8:10 right now and I'm still at school. Well, I kind of expected that because I wanted to stay with her and eat dinner with her. I also want to wait for her to finish her science fair and go home. I don't want to go home before her. I want to make sure that she goes home safe. I'm losing my mind right now. There is so much homework that I have to do and there are so much things that I need to take care of. We have a game on Friday and we have to practice so intensely right now. We should both take a long rest this weekend. We are both tired and we should rest a bit. She has her problems and I have mine. I really don't want to leave her.
    I can't believe how much homework we have this weekend. I have so much AP English homework. Two essays and two essay outlines that I have to finish. I also have notes from three AP classes that are instructed by Mr. Jones. I also have lots of calculus homework which I really don't want to do. I'm really confused by math.

February 22nd, 2011

    It has been a long time since I fell asleep in calculus class. I don't understand why I am so tired recently, but I know I need to get some more rest. I need to be more energetic and I need to get ready for the game on Friday. Well, what I want to do the most is to be more energetic when I stay with her. I got really tired after practicing basketball with Mr. Lee today. I played pretty well today, but there are still improvements that can be made. I really want to play basketball at a higher level, so I must improve my personal skills.
    There are also many other things that went well today. I'm getting a hold of the concepts in calculus and I'm doing better in the class. I hope my grades in calculus can improve and I hope that all of my other grades could be improved as well. I had a splendid afternoon today. It was wonderful yet it was short. I love her.

February 21st, 2011

    What a long and tiring day. I really want to lie down and fall asleep right now, but I have so much homework that I have to do. There are lots of calculus homework, lots of European History homework, and lots of homework that was just assigned today. I don't want to do anything right now except do spend time with her. I only have a few months left in Taiwan and I really want to spend all the time I have with her. I really don't know. I'm lost.
    There is a poetry contest that will be held in a few weeks, there is a science fair this Wednesday, and there will be basketball games going on both this week and next week. There are so many activities and so much homework, yet so little time. Basketball practice was pretty rough for me today and I think I will need some time to recover from the injuries taken today.

February 20th, 2011

    I don't feel good right now and I'm stressed out by the amount of homework I have to do on the weekend. I have so much AP Calculus homework I have to do, I have AP Government notes I have to do, I have AP Psychology reading notes I have to do, and I have so much AP European History reading notes that I have to do. I'm pretty mad at somebody for invading into someones privacy and then laughing at them. I feel like going boxing right now. There is this rage and there is nowhere to release it. Why give me more trouble when you know I'm already in so much stress?
    That's the bad news and here's the good news. I got into UIUC and I got the notice this Saturday. I pretty excited about getting into UIUC and my parents are also very happy. I had a wonderful day this Saturday. From the UIUC admission to the date in the afternoon, everything was wonderful. I really hope everyday of my life could be like this Saturday.

February 17th, 2011

    There was some major misunderstanding between us today. She got mad at some of our friends because they were playing around her her stuff and she became so mad that she ignored me. I became so mad that she ignored me and we almost got into a "cold-war" period. Luckily we were able to talk everything out and end the misunderstanding. Things work out when you try to communicate and understand other people. I'm glad we didn't harm our relationship for something so small and stupid.
    I went to play basketball today and I got hurt pretty badly. I twisted my ankle, pulled my leg, fell on the ground, and hurt my arm. Even though I received so many injuries, I think it was worth it. I scored so many points, I played defence well, and I led my team pretty nicely. I really do love playing basketball.

February 16th, 2011

    I'm kind of disappointed myself today. I am not completing my homework as I scheduled it to be and I am not doing well on the basketball court as well. I wanted to complete all of my AP Psychology notes during school hours today but I failed to do so. I also failed to keep up with the AP government notes that in which we had a lesson on in class today. Things are going well for me during class either because I'm losing focus or because I'm really tired. I've been facing lots of things these past few days and it is getting me really exhausted. I really want to relax for a bit but there is so much homework waiting for me.
    The other thing that disappointed me today was my performance on the basketball court. I did not play well today. To be honest, I performance was really bad. I need to get more rest in order to get my body into shape and ready for our next game.

February 15th, 2011

    Things don't always go as well as you think they will. I thought I would be very free and relaxed after all the college admissions were completed. Things didn't go like that. The entire senior class got warned today by Miss Pamela about our recent performance in school. She warned us that she would not let us graduate from high-school if we didn't do better in our second semester than we did in our first semester. I believe she is very serious about this and I think the senior class should work harder than before.
    My day didn't start out very well, but it ended pretty nicely. There were some rough times today but I think everything smoothed out. Arguments were settled, love was found again, and there is going to be a new player on the basketball team. I learned many lessons of life today and I hope these would benefit me in the future.

February 14th, 2011

    Happy Valentine Day to everyone! I hope everybody was able to enjoy this special day with the person they love. I really do wish that everyone can enjoy a happy day. Valentine Day this year is different for me. I used to spend past Valentine Days by myself, but this year I spent the day with the girl I love. I felt kind of disappointed at how the day went on, but I know I have to deal with it because of the nature of our relationship. I kinda want to complain a little bit today because I really wanted to spend more time with her.
    I have so much homework and I have such little time. I have so much calculus homework and so much AP English homework, but I haven't started any of it. I really need to hurry up working on my homework that is going to be due.

February 13th, 2011

    This weekend was a strange one. Strange things started to happen when basketball practice started. We thought practice was going to be really difficult on Friday because that was the usual. Practices on Fridays were usually extremely exhausting because we have two days to rest that followed our practice. We didn't do too much training on Friday and practice wasn't that exhausting, so I was surprised.
    Saturday went by really quickly with nothing special. Well, I got a new laptop, which was pretty good. I felt really good until I found out that there were some problems with the new laptop that I bought. I felt really awful after that.
    Sunday turned out to be a really strange day. I went to buy stuff for Valentines Day first thing in the morning, I got a new laptop from the vender, and I can't finish my homework. This is not what I expected to do for the weekend. I was wishing to finish more homework and to accomplish more academically. Well, I suppose things for this weekedn went well overall.

February 10th, 2011

   After playing three and a half hours of basketball this afternoon, I can finally understand what fatigue means. I was not able to recover from Yesterday's basketball practice yet I still wanted to challenge myself. I wanted to catch up with the team so that I wouldn't drag them down in our upcoming game with the National Experimental High School, but I went over my own limit. Three and a half hours is way too much for me and I can barely move right now. It's not just that I'm as tired as hell, I'm also severely injured. I broke a toenail and I hurt my leg muscles pretty severely. I don't think I can go to practice tomorrow.
    I really need rest, not just physical rest, but also psychological rest as well. I think I'm a little too stressed out today and I'm thinking a little bit too much. I need to put more trust in her and I need to give her a little bit more freedom. I love her and I want her to be happy, so why interfere in everything she wants to do? I hate myself for being so stupid. I really do.

February 9th, 2011

    I never knew school would be this tiring. It's the first day of school and there are so many things that just come pouring down on me. We have so much homework for AP English, we just had a test this morning for AP Government and we have to complete a presentation for tomorrow, we have to study a lot of material for our next AP Psychology exam, and we had basketball practice. Today's practice isn't like practice we had before, today's practice is tiring. My legs are hurting so much and I am completely exhausted.
    So much has been going on through the break. I finally get the feeling that our time spent during the hours for our college application has some outcome. I got into Penn State University, Ohio State University, and the University of Minnesota so far, but I'm still waiting for more results to come out. I had a wonderful Chinese New Year.

January 31st, 2011

    Things were going pretty well today. There was no AP Government test first period, AP English class went by with a movie, I did pretty well on AP Psychology, there was no basketball practice, and I enjoyed a wonderful afternoon. Well, things went really well and life was easy going. Chinese New Year break is coming up and we have another school day tomorrow, but I don't think things will to too stressing tomorrow. I hope I can spend some more time with her tomorrow. After all, I won't be able to see her for a week and I will miss her a lot. I hope the holidays end quickly, because I want to see her really soon. Finally, I wish everyone a happy Chinese New Year.

January 30th, 2011

    It's been a busy weekend and there are lots of things that were accomplished during this time. Friday was an absolutely horrible and fantastic day. I made a terrible mistake Friday morning and that almost destroyed our relationship. Well, things were better at Hoopla, the fundraiser for the basketball team. I got so drunk that I couldn't figure out who was in front of me and I almost got into something that I shouldn't have done. I love you and I'm sorry for what I did. I hope you forgive me. The event went on until 11:00, when we finally finished cleaning up the cafeteria.
    It was a really exhausting week and I was so tired that I slept until four in the afternoon on Saturday. It was a really depressing day and it was also a really short one. I can't forgive myself now. I hope I feel better tomorrow.
   Sunday was somewhat better then Saturday. Well, it was a more meaningful day. We finished cleaning all the surfaces of the house and we are ready for Chinese New Year. I think we are ready, but I need to get some more new clothes for the holiday.

January 27th, 2011

    Love is easy and love can happen anywhere because everyone has the right to love another person. I never knew love could be so easy and I never new that love would spark between her and me. After being together with her, I figured love was not that difficult. All you need to do is believe in your love and live on. I faced many problems and many struggles, but I was able to end all of them with faith. This video and this song really helped me strengthen my faith in our relationship. This song is not only a good description for how our relationship started, it is also a perfect description of my feelings towards you. I love you and it is not possible for me not to. I'll never give up this right I have to love you. So, when you have doubt, listen to my heart. Listen to the voice "I love you". I'll always be here. I'll always love you. Never to give up.

January 26th, 2011

   
    Sometimes some laughter is good for your health. When I think about laughter that comes from videos, I think about parodies. This video here is a parody of Jay Chou's "Thousand Miles Away". It is very hilarious and it even includes information on the current economy around the world. I find this video really funny and amusing while also finding it depicting debt problems very realistically. Maybe we should laugh a little more. When you think about stressful problems, you get tired and somewhat lazy. A video like this would really help you get through difficult times.

January 25th, 2011

  
    There are many musics videos that I have watched and there they are all very well done, but I like this one the most. This music video was made to accompany Jay Chou's song "Moving Back" and I believe this video is the best fit for this song. I really like this song and I listen to it when I feel confused about our relationship. People always tell others to move forward in life, but moving forward sometimes gets us stuck in trouble and moving forward can result in us losing our direction in life. Instead of moving forward all the time, taking a few step back can really help. Taking a few steps back can not only allow us to understand the problems we have to face but it can also give us directions in life.
    We all have to move on and try out different possibilities in life, but taking a few steps back and allowing ourselves to readjust is as important. When you face problems in life, try listening to this song and readjusting how you feel. It really helps!

January 24th, 2011

    Seems like both of us got into some big trouble today. I swear things really do get out of hand. We had a very pleasant afternoon today, but the costs for this date are great. We went out at four forty and we left the place at six forty five. Her parents are now mad at her and they even want all the cellphone numbers of her friends. My mom is pretty mad at me as well and she just left me at school today. We're both tired today and we both need some rest, but the turbulence we caused today is probably not going to allow us to rest well. I just hope that it works out for both of us. I want her to get some rest tonight so that she has enough energy tomorrow. I really like what happened today! It was wonderful and amazing. Even if we face difficulties now, I want you to know something. You're never gonna be alone.

January 23th, 2011

    It has been quite some time since I've been so happy. Friday was horrible and Saturday morning was so hard to live through. I thought I was going to die and I cried myself to sleep Friday night. Even though those times were hard to cope with, Saturday afternoon was different. It was so different that I still feel shock this moment. Things turned out exactly opposite from what I expected them to be. I never thought it was possible between us, but that was different than what actually happened. I really have to say, life is unpredictable and it sure is full of surprises.
    I have to say sorry to the basketball team due to this because I'm going to spend more time with her. I'm gonna base my life on her and I'm never gonna get distracted by anything else. I hope we don't have to face any disputes. I want her to be happy and I'm gonna keep her safe. Thank you very much for what happened yesterday! I love you. For the song we love the most.

January 20th, 2011

    Yo man. I finally figured the "why" I so wanted to know and I'm pretty happy about that. There are no longer doubts in my mind and I feel pretty free now. It great when you feel good man. Well, I feel great except for the fact that I got two tests tomorrow and I just received some really bad news. She can't come watch the game tomorrow and she can't go out on Saturday. How much bad luck do I have man? Just why ain't things working for me? I don't understand at all.
    I just have to say, life sucks man. Well, let me put those things down on the side man. I have a game tomorrow and I really can't spend my time thinking about other things. This is going to be a very interesting game tomorrow; I'm not going to let Guangfu take it easily man.
    Just some sidenotes, I love you baby. Smile for me.

January 19th, 2011

    Yo, what is up man? That's the first thing we usually say when we meet a friend that's been away for a long time. That is the question I want to ask myself. Why the hell man I am acting so strangely lately? Man. I'm like a ghost floating around with no purpose in mind. I don't know, but I think life is a little strange for me right now? Some of my friends say to me, "just move on and you will get your answer", but I really don't know man. I seem lost again. Lost floating on the vast ocean, not knowing what to do. This is dangerous man. Losing yourself when you know who you are and where you should be. I love her. I don't want to end things like this.

January 18th, 2011

    Man, I shouldn't have went to the barber shop today. My hairstyle look ridiculous. Well, its not that bad, but it was better before the cut. I hope the hair grow back quickly man, or else this would be really, really embarrassing for me. Today was supposed to be a good day, but the further the day went, the worse I felt. You know man, things just go like the tides and my day just went up and down. I hate it when that happens. Why can't there just be a peaceful and happy day? I hate the low tides man. I really hate those times. They not just mess up my day, they also mess up the good emotions of my friends. I hate those really bad low tides. Just hate them man.
  

January 17th, 2011

    Today ain't the best day for me mate. I really ain't doing well and me friends ain't supporting me in any way. Things cannot be done perfectly today and there are a bunch of stuff that left regrets in me man. Today could have been a perfect day you know. Man, there are just some things that mess up the day. Government class would've been perfect without the test you know. You know man, I really hate test first thing in the morning. Test first thing in the morning are brain cell killers. English class would've been perfect if a brought my computer. I just ain't remember to bring my laptop and that completely destroyed the feeling of fully preparing oneself for class. You know. Even though I didn't bring my own laptop I was able to borrow one from the girl. I got some stuff from her laptop and they were great man. Psychology class would've been better if a hadn't fell asleep. I thought today's psych class was interesting somehow.
    Basketball practice went well, better than I thought. My mates were ready to welcome me back from the two week absence and I did great. Just love playing ball.

January 16th, 2011

    This week ain't going well for me at all. There's just too much stuff to do and my thoughts are flying by like the wind. Not only homework, but also cleaning duties due to the upcoming Chinese New Year break. I really don't know if I can handle all this. There are big winds blowing and the waves are building up higher and higher. I doubt I can surf through these waves safely. I really doubt that I can make it. While I'm typing this essay, I got to worry about an AP Government test tomorrow as well as so much other stuff. I have an AP government poster that I have to finish, I have AP Calculus homework that I have to turn in, I have AP European essays I have to write, and I have somebody to worry about.
    I really love her and I also love basketball, but I don't know which one to choose from. I must find a balance between the two and I must do it quickly. The basketball games are coming up soon and I must go to practice, but I also want to stay with her. I must make up my choice and I don't think my teammates will like my decision.

January 13th, 2011

    Up until this moment of the day, a friendship that is beyond the boundaries of normal friendship and a feeling of belonging to somewhere has made my day wonderful. I hope this feeling lasts to the time I fall into the world of memories. Lovely memories that I will get from tonight and lovely thoughts that spring from these memories. There is so much homework that is assigned to us and i really don't think I am capable of finishing all of it with the expected quality. I guess I have to work harder than I have ever done before.
    I love life and I love school, but I think I should think in a more optimistic way in order to get things done in a more efficient manner. I have to plan out my time during the weekend carefully so that I can finish all my work and study for all of the test that are going to jump on me next week.
    Leaving off with some last thoughts, I love you!!!!

January 12th, 2011

    A long day passed by with several questions that were answered with answers that made me very confident. Not only confidence in myself, but also confidence towards the future and confidence towards her. Life seems to be much easier when the questions I have in mind have been resolved. Answered questions lead to a light wighted heart and a light weighted heart leads to a happy life. I hope that this happiness has no end to it and I hope this happiness can last into the next life. Let life carve  memories into me.
    A cold day as it is and a sleepy day as well, most of the students including me fell asleep in class due to the freezing cold weather and the thick jackets that they had on. There were so many heads on the desks today and exhaustion spread like a disease.
    Part of the basketball team is getting heated up and ready for competition while the other part is getting more serious at the game they are about to face. Two games are coming up in a row and something has to change this time; we're going to win.

January 11th, 2011

    Today is a really strange day with so many unexpected comments that worsened my mood. Things aren't going very well for me and I really don't know how I should face her when I want to talk to her about things kept inside my heart. Whenever I talk about the things that I keep in my mind that are slowly suffocating me, both of us get harmed and this happens every time. Whenever somebody wants something, they can never get it. That seems to be the rules that my life is based on right now. Without capability to change this fact, without the needed energy to change my life, and without the support from the right person.
    Life doesn't seem as interesting as it was before and it seems as if life never leads people on the right way. I hold only one belief now. The belief that people have to create the right path for themselves. If they fail to create their own path, they are destined for isolation. Not isolation from the general public, but instead isolation from the ones that they love and cherish the most.
    I love you, but you're moving further and further away.

January 10th, 2011

    Today is a complicated day filled with ups and downs, sudden events, and other strange events that do not happen around me. I lost an account that with everything in had, I couldn't schedule the time to ask questions about AP Calculus, I couldn't finish my calculus homework and in result I have a whole bunch of homework that I need to complete. A long and wordy blog post for a comparison of the movie we watched today and The Scarlet Letter, a poster that we have to do to explain the flow of the British governmental system, and so many questions for calculus that I have to work on with other calculus students. There are so many things that I have to do in a complete and orderly fashion and I can't even imagine how long this will continue. I'm also extremely troubled by the writing style that was assigned for us when we are supposed to write our journals. Activities are going on and I don't think it would be a very appropriate time to complain about how much stuff I have to do. Just doing it would be much better.

January 9th, 2011

    I really don't know what the hell is going on with me this semester. My grades are not as well as I expected and my GPA is really low. My average high school GPA has dropped after the GPA for the first semester of my senior year has been added. I really don't know if I could get into any college with the current grades I have right now. So many questions and so much doubt in my mind with nobody to respond to them.
    I was really depressed after I looked at my transcript. My grade for calculus complete ruined my chances of admission to some of my colleges and I lost my advantage as one of the top ranking students of the graduating class.
    Model United Nations is going pretty well for me thought. I got a chance to participatein the conference at Russia as a delegate in the Security Council. This is a very rare chance and I'm going to do my best at it. Basketball practice isn't going very well thought. I'm planning on leaving the team before the Chinese New Year break but I don't know how I should tell the team.

January 6th, 2011

    I feel kinda depressed today and I really don't really want to do anything. I've been thinking about the reasons why I feel so depressed and helpless these few day and I came up with an answer. My body is becoming really fatigued due to the little amounts of sleep I get each day. With such a week body, I can barely do anything and I'm losing most of abilities regarding basketball. I really need to rest more, but I also want to spend more time with her as well. I really don't like this struggle that is going on inside me. We are destined to be normal friends, but I'm willing to sacrifiece my time and health just to spend more time with her. This is a very complicated feeling that I have. I want to share how I feel with my friends but I really don't know who I should talk to. If this situation continues, I'm probably going to get so weak that I won't even be able to run. There are several basketball games and school events coming up and I really want to participate in them. I've got to get my body back to normal.

January 5th, 2011

    Today is a very plain day with nothing special. I finished all my finals and I am almost free. All I have to do now is send out the first semester reports to our colleges. I'm about to collapse and I really don't know how I'm supposed to face "her". This is a very serious problem because I might be in a life threatening situation. Today's basketball practice is also somewhat unmotivated, but I still got hurt anyway. I really need to train my body more and gain more weight.
    I think I like how things are going right now. Things meaning what is happening between me and her. I think I will just let our relationship stay this way, for the benefit of us both. Good night!

January 4th, 2011

    Today was a really strange day. A really depressing day as well. The AP Calculus final exam was so hard. There was a majority of questions that I did not understand and I think I messed up on the exam. I really don't know what my score will be for my first semester report card, but I do know that my scores won't be too good. I'm deeply worried about tomorrow's AP English exam because I'm not very confident in my writing and I don't think I can actually finish the essay in an hour.
    I don't like how things are going today and I don't want to talk at all. I feel as if I'm trapped in a deep cave without light, isolated from the world. Like I'm destine to be sealed in the cave forever and destined to fall deeper and deeper into the cave. As I'm falling deeper and deeper down, the more desperate I become in searching for hope. When I can't find any hope I can hold on to and when I can't find anyone to put my faith on, I feel as if tears are about to fall off my cheeks. This concealment seems eternal and it surely does feel eternal. This scenario is as if being stabbed in the heart but not being able to die. As if an eternal torture.

January 3rd, 2011

    Today is a really depressing day. Absolutely nothing is going well for me and I really don't like how things are going right now. I received the test scores for my final exam in AP Psychology, AP Comparative Government, and AP English. I didn't do as well as I expected on all three tests. The scores were acceptable, but they could have been higher if I was more careful during the test. I don't think my grades this semester will look too good. I wonder how much this will affect my college admission process. Somebody save me.
    The basketball team is facing some really serious problems. The weather is too cold and there is just no way we can play. Our bodies are frozen and we can barely move our fingers.
    The biggest problem I have now is my AP Calculus test tomorrow. I don't know how I am going to face up with that test and I think this test will ruin my GPA.

January 2nd, 2011

    This entry would be the first one for the new year and it is quite a coincidence that the we have a final exam the first day we get back to school. I really don't want to take a test the first day we get back to school, but I have no choice at all. The seniors must take the finals before or on Wednesday so that we can send our senior year transcripts to the universities that we have applied for. I only have to take finals for two more subjects, but those two subjects are the two hardest subjects that I have. I really have to work for this time's grades because I don't believe they will come easily. I'm really not good at math and I really don't know how well I will do on an AP exam. I just hope my mind is clear enough for the AP English test tomorrow.