January 6th, 2011

    I feel kinda depressed today and I really don't really want to do anything. I've been thinking about the reasons why I feel so depressed and helpless these few day and I came up with an answer. My body is becoming really fatigued due to the little amounts of sleep I get each day. With such a week body, I can barely do anything and I'm losing most of abilities regarding basketball. I really need to rest more, but I also want to spend more time with her as well. I really don't like this struggle that is going on inside me. We are destined to be normal friends, but I'm willing to sacrifiece my time and health just to spend more time with her. This is a very complicated feeling that I have. I want to share how I feel with my friends but I really don't know who I should talk to. If this situation continues, I'm probably going to get so weak that I won't even be able to run. There are several basketball games and school events coming up and I really want to participate in them. I've got to get my body back to normal.