March 31th, 2011

    What an amazing day. Things didn't do too well for me today and I didn't want it to be as it was. I was supposed to wake up and go to school today, but things didn't work out as they were supposed to be. I woke up today realizing that it was three in the afternoon and I was really shocked. Nobody called me up today and I had to go to a basketball game in five minutes from three. It was horrible. I made it to the game and I played fairly well, but we still lost the game. I didn't see her today and I really regret it. I don't ever want to miss a chance to see her and be with her again. I just absolutely hate it. I love her and I want to be with her. I'm never going to miss out any chance I have to be with her again.

March 30th, 2011

    Wow. That AP English exam was surely terrifying. The passages were so hard and there were so many questions that I did not understand. I really wish I could retake that test with more time. The test was very intense and I thought I would not have finish the essay. I wish I don't mess up this test. This is one of the most important tests I have right not and I need it to keep my GPA up. I also have to prepare for three more midterms during the break. If I fail any one of those, then I don't think it would be possible for me to graduate from high school. I really need to work harder.
     Game day tomorrow. Tomorrow is the last day of school and we have a basketball game. That's a bit weird but we still have to do our best in the game. This game is one of the last games that we will play and I think it would be very important to us. We really need a victory.

March 29th, 2011

    There are so many tests and there is so much homework that I have to do. I still have four midterms that I have to take and a lot of homework that needs to be handed in. I have to do so much homework and prepare for so many things, which is really overwhelming to me. On top of that, I have to worry about getting low grades in every class. I'm missing a lot of assignments for calculus, I'm not doing well on test for government and European history, and I'm barely passing by for psychology and English.
    Even though I have so much stuff, I still had to practice basketball. Basketball went well today and things after that went well to. I love her so much and I really cannot resist her.

March 28th, 2011

    First day back at school was quite different than I thought it would be. We were all really, really tired and it was very hard to keep our heads up. I cannot believe how hard it was to keep my conscious awake. It was like fighting the sleep devil every second I was in class. Even though sleep tried to catch us every moment we were off guard, things went pretty well. The government test was not as hard as I thought it would be and things seem to be back on track again. I finally know how much I have to face right now. There are so many unit tests and so many midterms that I have to complete before Prom. I have to practice for the basketball game while also managing my time doing homework. Most important of all, I have to spend time with her. Finally back, finally able to see her and feel her presence again. I will love her forever.

March 27th, 2011

    Finally back in Taiwan and finally time to face schoolwork. I'm so tired I could fall asleep any second right now, but I know I can't do that. I have so much homework that I have to make up and I have so many tests that I have to prepare for. I'm very worried about my AP European History,  AP Psychology, AP calculus, and AP Government grades. I haven't been working hard enough on them and I believe I have to work harder in order to keep my grades as they were before. Now I think I have to work even harder than just hard. I just knew that I had a test on China for my AP Government class first thing tomorrow morning. I really need some luck and I really need help from other people. I hope that I can get through this crisis safely, I don't want any of my grades to drop. I need to keep up my grades because I want to be somebody that can be on the same level as her.

March 17th, 2011

    Why do things have to be so complicated? Why are there so many tricks that destiny can play on us? I hate how destiny can change something great to something terrible in a few seconds. I hate how destiny like to play around with us. Letting us see things that are not going to come in the future then letting us down. Fate and destiny always play around with our lives and they always seem to let us down. Even in the worst condition that someone could ever imagine, there is always a hope, a determination that will appear and change the circumstances. I wish she makes it through this critical stage of her life and I will do anything to help her get through. I love her and I am willing to do anything to help.

March 16th, 2011

    I can't believe today is such a tiring day. There is so much material that I have to take in from AP Government and AP Psychology. We did a lot of work in AP English today and I have to redo one of my essays because I lost the file while I was saving the document. I also have to finish all of my Model United Nations work before I go to school tomorrow. I have to write a speech on the situation in Yemen and another speech on the situation in Kyrgyzstan. I have to catch up with current events that are going on in the two countries and I have to think of some solutions really quickly. I'm losing confidence in a lot of things recently, even some of the things that are most important to me right now.

March 15th, 2011

    Today is wonderful, somewhat wonderful. Both the boy's team and the girl's team won their games today! Though they were tight games, both teams fought to the very end and both teams were able to win. It was a very difficult game for me today because I hurt my back very severely Yesterday. I thought I wasn't able to play today, but I made it to the game. I went to a Chinese doctor first thing in the morning today and went through a hellish experience. It was really, really painful. The pain I endured worked. My back was greatly cured and I was able to move my body again, but my right leg was dead. I wasn't able to walk until three in the afternoon and I was deeply troubled about playing in the game or not. I made my choice and I played in that game. It paid off. We won the game. I'm so tired right now. I really want to go to sleep.

March 14th, 2011

    That was a horrible fall today. The right side of my body is now destroyed and I don't know if I can play in tomorrow's game. This is really bad. So many of our players can't play and so many of them haven't been practicing for quite some time. Tomorrow's game is going to be a slaughter. I can't believe that I have fallen to such a low level of desire and spirit. I really need to pick up on my homework and I really need to work harder. Maybe I shouldn't have taken so many AP courses or maybe I shouldn't have devoted so much of my time on other things. Well, I feel slightly better now since I no longer have to take two of the five APs that I once had. I need to worker harder and catch up on my homework now. Even if I no longer need to sleep for the whole week.

March 13th, 2011

    Things aren't going too well for me recently. There are so many things that I have to do and I have such little time. It is always time that I am complaining about. I have to leave the country in five days and I have so many tests and so much homework that I have to do before I leave. I also have to get the packing for Russia done this weekend. There are so many items that I have to bring with me. My whole luggage is full and there are still more clothes that I have to bring to Russia. I'm really going to fail my classes if I don't work harder. I really need to work harder on my European History and my Calculus classes, they are really hard and I am really lacking the motivation for the homework that is assigned. What is going on with me? I really don't know and I really don't want to know because it is going to a horrible excuse that I have.

March 10th, 2011

    I don't know why people can't control the flow of time, but I do know that I would love to control time as I want it to be like. Don't even plan to far ahead in life because you never know what you have to face on your path and you never know when you need to change your plans. Let your plans go and everything will be fine in the end. At least we have the ability to settle everything down. It's been a long time since I've listened to some good music. I can barely remember the power music gives me. I feel more comfortable now. More cold-blooded and more focused. I want to win and I want to take control. I'm willing to pay any price to win. I'm going to force everything out so that I can take control. I hate living a life with somebody controlling every aspect of it. I'm going to break free and I'm going to remove anyone in my way.

March 9th, 2011

    I feel very upset right now. We don't spend enough time in school and we don't even have time after school has ended. Things are not going very well for us and I really don't like how we have to be afraid of other people. We are taught to be unique and creative in our school, but the school also places limits on what we do and how we do things. Even if I face difficulties now, I love her and I will never give her up. We have so much to do in preparation for Russia and I have so much homework. I also have to go to school tomorrow to take an AP exam and I also have to get myself ready for the basketball game next week on the 15th.

March 8th, 2011

    Today is a really tiring day for me. The game was long and hard and I got into a little argument with her. I really want to do as she says but I'm slowly deviating away from what she wants me to do. I love her and I'll do everything her way. If that's something that she wants, I will try my best to do it. I'm really worried right now. She's on her bed and she doesn't have her blanket on. I'm worried that she will get a cold. I'm really worried. Today's game was pretty good. We lost by three points by a scored my career high. Eight points today. We should have won the game. We were so close to victory but it slipped by. I guess we just have to work harder.

March 7th, 2011

    Today was almost as relaxing as ever. I barely did any homework and I'm not even putting my head into class and school. All I want to do is to spend time with her and enjoy life. I really don't know what is going wrong inside me, but I do know that I really want to spend more time with her. All the time I have to spare is the time I want to spend with her. I just hope god is on our side. I need help, whatever sort of help that I can get.
    Now I'm really worried about my Calculus class. I haven't handed in many assignments and I really need to do better on my tests. I need help on CALCULUS. I feel kind of bad for letting my teachers down with bad grades. I must work harder, but it seems kind of hard.

March 6th, 2011

    Things happen suddenly and time is flying by. Why does time always seem to move faster when we are happy? Why can't we do anything about it? I wish I had the ability to change time and look through time. I made several mistake in my life and I finally see their consequences right now. If I had the chance to go back in time, I would have taken the other path. The path that would allow me to stay with her for a longer period of time. I love her. I don't ever want to leave her. I don't regret making my choice to be with her and I never will regret this.

March 3rd, 2011

    Wow! I never knew playing the drums was so hard, especially when you're playing with a whole group of people. Things come suddenly and you just have to deal with them. I've got to start practicing how to play with drum with other people. There are thirty five songs that I have to learn and I only have a few months to learn all of them. This is a real pain that I have to deal with. I have to prepare for MUN , practice basketball, do my academic work, and deal with my relationship issues. So much to do and so little to enjoy from.
    Things are really bad right now and I'm feeling a sense of change. Something is going to go wrong, but I don't know what it is. I tired, but I will endure all of this for one simple reason; it makes me feel as I have a purpose to live on. It is my reason for existence and I know that there is no way for me to give this up.

March 2nd, 2011

    I'm falling asleep and I'm seriously tired today. This sentence was typed 50 minutes after the first one. I fell asleep. I'm seriously tired today. Things just aren't going well for me this week. I have basketball practice, I have musical practice, I have five AP classes that I have to deal with, and I still have to worry about her a lot. Why isn't she picking up the phone right now? I'm pretty worried that she'll get into more trouble with her parents.
    I don't know what homework I have today, but I do know that there are a few assignments that I have to complete. I have AP Government, lot of AP Calculus, AP Psychology, AP English, and lot and lots of AP European History. I want to go to bed early today!!!! I really need a good sleep. I need a long and good sleep.

March 1st, 2011

    Today was a pretty tiring day and I think this week would be a pretty tiring week. I really don't want to do anything else except for sharing time with her and playing basketball. This doesn't feel like second semester of senior life and I really don't like the fact that things are going out of hand for the two of us. I really hate it when other people nose into the business of other people. Why do we have to suffer from the words of other people? Life isn't fair. I know it isn't. I just don't understand why it has to be us that life is unfair to. This is really painful. Even though times may seem difficult for us right now, I will love her forever and I don't ever want us to be separated.
    Essays, notes, and tests. There are so many assignments that I have to complete before tomorrow. To be more exact, before I go to bed. I better get going on the homework because I don't think I can make it before tomorrow.