February 28th, 2011

    Today was better than I thought, slightly better than I thought. We can still be together and I know for sure that we still love each other. Things aren't going as well because the juniors are getting more attention from Miss Pamela and the teachers. This means that we have to be more careful of our actions and the places that these actions occur. Things can't be as they were before and sometimes changes are necessary for continuation.
    I have so much calculus, again. I also have lots of other homework that I have to do and many tests that I have to prepare for. Things are going a bit over the limit and I don't think I can hold out very long. I have to get rid of all this homework and I want to rest. I want to stay with her and spend more time with her. I love you.

February 27th, 2011

    There is so much homework that I have to complete this weekend yet I have achieved so little. I still have three calculus assignments that I haven't started, I still have to make up the European History notes that I haven't handed in yet, and I still have to do the AP English essays. There's just so much that has to be done. I don't know why I feel so lazy this weekend, but I guess it's the basketball game on Friday that exhausted me. It wasn't that great a game and I didn't like the game at all. It was completely unreasonable and there was nothing I could do about it. I have to admit that I wasn't physically prepared for the game, but I knew what was going on. It's something that I still have to improve on, temper control.
    We're both tired and ill, yet homework is pushing down on us so much. I really can't handle the amount of homework I have. There is just so much. I hope I can quickly finish and quickly catch up with all the homework that I need to do. I'm really worried about her.

February 24th, 2011

    I really don't know why today is such a horrible day. She's experiencing extreme pain and I can't do anything about it. I feel really bad about this and I wish she gets better. I really hate not being able to help when she needs it. It makes me feel useless and she has to suffer even more. I got really mad at myself today for not being able to help her. I hate this feeling and I hate it a lot. I really don't want to go to the game tomorrow because I want to stay with her until she goes home. She needs to get more rest and her body is really weak right now. She has had a rough week and I don't want her to exhaust herself tomorrow.
    I love her and I don't want her to be unhappy. I don't want her to endure pain and I don't want her to worry over things she doesn't have to worry about. What can I do? Why am I so useless when she needs something from me? I want to know.

February 23rd, 2011

    It's 8:10 right now and I'm still at school. Well, I kind of expected that because I wanted to stay with her and eat dinner with her. I also want to wait for her to finish her science fair and go home. I don't want to go home before her. I want to make sure that she goes home safe. I'm losing my mind right now. There is so much homework that I have to do and there are so much things that I need to take care of. We have a game on Friday and we have to practice so intensely right now. We should both take a long rest this weekend. We are both tired and we should rest a bit. She has her problems and I have mine. I really don't want to leave her.
    I can't believe how much homework we have this weekend. I have so much AP English homework. Two essays and two essay outlines that I have to finish. I also have notes from three AP classes that are instructed by Mr. Jones. I also have lots of calculus homework which I really don't want to do. I'm really confused by math.

February 22nd, 2011

    It has been a long time since I fell asleep in calculus class. I don't understand why I am so tired recently, but I know I need to get some more rest. I need to be more energetic and I need to get ready for the game on Friday. Well, what I want to do the most is to be more energetic when I stay with her. I got really tired after practicing basketball with Mr. Lee today. I played pretty well today, but there are still improvements that can be made. I really want to play basketball at a higher level, so I must improve my personal skills.
    There are also many other things that went well today. I'm getting a hold of the concepts in calculus and I'm doing better in the class. I hope my grades in calculus can improve and I hope that all of my other grades could be improved as well. I had a splendid afternoon today. It was wonderful yet it was short. I love her.

February 21st, 2011

    What a long and tiring day. I really want to lie down and fall asleep right now, but I have so much homework that I have to do. There are lots of calculus homework, lots of European History homework, and lots of homework that was just assigned today. I don't want to do anything right now except do spend time with her. I only have a few months left in Taiwan and I really want to spend all the time I have with her. I really don't know. I'm lost.
    There is a poetry contest that will be held in a few weeks, there is a science fair this Wednesday, and there will be basketball games going on both this week and next week. There are so many activities and so much homework, yet so little time. Basketball practice was pretty rough for me today and I think I will need some time to recover from the injuries taken today.

February 20th, 2011

    I don't feel good right now and I'm stressed out by the amount of homework I have to do on the weekend. I have so much AP Calculus homework I have to do, I have AP Government notes I have to do, I have AP Psychology reading notes I have to do, and I have so much AP European History reading notes that I have to do. I'm pretty mad at somebody for invading into someones privacy and then laughing at them. I feel like going boxing right now. There is this rage and there is nowhere to release it. Why give me more trouble when you know I'm already in so much stress?
    That's the bad news and here's the good news. I got into UIUC and I got the notice this Saturday. I pretty excited about getting into UIUC and my parents are also very happy. I had a wonderful day this Saturday. From the UIUC admission to the date in the afternoon, everything was wonderful. I really hope everyday of my life could be like this Saturday.

February 17th, 2011

    There was some major misunderstanding between us today. She got mad at some of our friends because they were playing around her her stuff and she became so mad that she ignored me. I became so mad that she ignored me and we almost got into a "cold-war" period. Luckily we were able to talk everything out and end the misunderstanding. Things work out when you try to communicate and understand other people. I'm glad we didn't harm our relationship for something so small and stupid.
    I went to play basketball today and I got hurt pretty badly. I twisted my ankle, pulled my leg, fell on the ground, and hurt my arm. Even though I received so many injuries, I think it was worth it. I scored so many points, I played defence well, and I led my team pretty nicely. I really do love playing basketball.

February 16th, 2011

    I'm kind of disappointed myself today. I am not completing my homework as I scheduled it to be and I am not doing well on the basketball court as well. I wanted to complete all of my AP Psychology notes during school hours today but I failed to do so. I also failed to keep up with the AP government notes that in which we had a lesson on in class today. Things are going well for me during class either because I'm losing focus or because I'm really tired. I've been facing lots of things these past few days and it is getting me really exhausted. I really want to relax for a bit but there is so much homework waiting for me.
    The other thing that disappointed me today was my performance on the basketball court. I did not play well today. To be honest, I performance was really bad. I need to get more rest in order to get my body into shape and ready for our next game.

February 15th, 2011

    Things don't always go as well as you think they will. I thought I would be very free and relaxed after all the college admissions were completed. Things didn't go like that. The entire senior class got warned today by Miss Pamela about our recent performance in school. She warned us that she would not let us graduate from high-school if we didn't do better in our second semester than we did in our first semester. I believe she is very serious about this and I think the senior class should work harder than before.
    My day didn't start out very well, but it ended pretty nicely. There were some rough times today but I think everything smoothed out. Arguments were settled, love was found again, and there is going to be a new player on the basketball team. I learned many lessons of life today and I hope these would benefit me in the future.

February 14th, 2011

    Happy Valentine Day to everyone! I hope everybody was able to enjoy this special day with the person they love. I really do wish that everyone can enjoy a happy day. Valentine Day this year is different for me. I used to spend past Valentine Days by myself, but this year I spent the day with the girl I love. I felt kind of disappointed at how the day went on, but I know I have to deal with it because of the nature of our relationship. I kinda want to complain a little bit today because I really wanted to spend more time with her.
    I have so much homework and I have such little time. I have so much calculus homework and so much AP English homework, but I haven't started any of it. I really need to hurry up working on my homework that is going to be due.

February 13th, 2011

    This weekend was a strange one. Strange things started to happen when basketball practice started. We thought practice was going to be really difficult on Friday because that was the usual. Practices on Fridays were usually extremely exhausting because we have two days to rest that followed our practice. We didn't do too much training on Friday and practice wasn't that exhausting, so I was surprised.
    Saturday went by really quickly with nothing special. Well, I got a new laptop, which was pretty good. I felt really good until I found out that there were some problems with the new laptop that I bought. I felt really awful after that.
    Sunday turned out to be a really strange day. I went to buy stuff for Valentines Day first thing in the morning, I got a new laptop from the vender, and I can't finish my homework. This is not what I expected to do for the weekend. I was wishing to finish more homework and to accomplish more academically. Well, I suppose things for this weekedn went well overall.

February 10th, 2011

   After playing three and a half hours of basketball this afternoon, I can finally understand what fatigue means. I was not able to recover from Yesterday's basketball practice yet I still wanted to challenge myself. I wanted to catch up with the team so that I wouldn't drag them down in our upcoming game with the National Experimental High School, but I went over my own limit. Three and a half hours is way too much for me and I can barely move right now. It's not just that I'm as tired as hell, I'm also severely injured. I broke a toenail and I hurt my leg muscles pretty severely. I don't think I can go to practice tomorrow.
    I really need rest, not just physical rest, but also psychological rest as well. I think I'm a little too stressed out today and I'm thinking a little bit too much. I need to put more trust in her and I need to give her a little bit more freedom. I love her and I want her to be happy, so why interfere in everything she wants to do? I hate myself for being so stupid. I really do.

February 9th, 2011

    I never knew school would be this tiring. It's the first day of school and there are so many things that just come pouring down on me. We have so much homework for AP English, we just had a test this morning for AP Government and we have to complete a presentation for tomorrow, we have to study a lot of material for our next AP Psychology exam, and we had basketball practice. Today's practice isn't like practice we had before, today's practice is tiring. My legs are hurting so much and I am completely exhausted.
    So much has been going on through the break. I finally get the feeling that our time spent during the hours for our college application has some outcome. I got into Penn State University, Ohio State University, and the University of Minnesota so far, but I'm still waiting for more results to come out. I had a wonderful Chinese New Year.