April 11th, 2011

    I don't know why I feel this way, but I'm really tired and I really hate what life is doing to us. We never get a chance to be alone because there is always something that would intervene between us. It is either some unexpected event or somebody that just has nothing to do. I hate life and I hate destiny for not letting us spend more time with each other, but I thank them for letting us be together. I need her and I really love her a lot. I hate it when somebody says that she will give up anything about something and then intervenes into the thing again. The first day of school was quite different from what I had expected, but things are still going well. I want to spend more time with her, a lot more time.

April 10th, 2011

    Things are not going well for me at all. I've just lost my chance to go to university in the United States. My mom was very upset about my score on unit tests in school and she said I didn't deserve to go to college. I know I didn't study much during this time and I know I had a bad study attitude, so I think I deserve what I get. Maybe things have changed for me, but I know that we will still be together forever. I finally completed all of my midterms today and I am really happy about it. I think I did really well on the tests and I believe that I can raise my grades. I really hope that I can get Bs on all of my classes. I need those Bs and I want to keep my grades as they were before. I need to prove my mother wrong. I can do well.

April 7th, 2011

    Today was a complete change for me. I have finally started doing some of the homework I have and I have finished studying for my AP Psychology midterm. I feel pretty happy about this and I don't want to slack off anymore. I've done pretty well on my psychology tests, at least better than the other two subjects that I have to take during the break. I feel dissappointed at myself for slacking off so much during all this time and I really want to make it all up. Things are going well between us, but I'm keeping her up really, really late. I don't like that at all. I want her to take of herself more and I want her to be happy. I swear I won't let her down. Not once in my life again.

April 6th, 2011

    I'm starting to worry right now. I haven't done any homework and I haven't studied for any of my tests during the whole break. I starting to worry that I won't get good grades on the midterms and that I will fail all of my classes. I really need to study for the following two days so that I can safely graduate from high school and not mess up my life. I spent a pretty good afternoon with her today and we discussed lots of things together I really want to be with her for the rest of my life. I love her and I will love her forever. She really needs to get more rest and get more sleep. She is making me really worried.

April 5th, 2011

     Today was strange. I was not a disappointment to my parents, but to my family. Today was tomb sweeping day for my family, but I didn't show up and I didn't go to the family dining period. I think I was completely horrible today. I really need to get up earlier, study harder, and complete what I have missed in previous classes. I completely missed out time spent with her today and I've kept her waiting again. I really need to improve and become a better man. I love her so much and I don't want her to suffer for me. This is just not correct.

April 4th, 2011

    Things aren't going too well today. I still haven't done any studying and I really don't know if this is good. I have so much I have to do over this break and I have achieved so little it is pathetic. I really need to work harder and get off the addiction on things that I shouldn't be addicted on. This would make my life much easier and my parents would be way happier then they are now. I hope I could be a better child, but it seems like I always disappoint my parents one way or another. I hope I can graduate from university without having them worry about me too much. I hope I can take her as my wife, just like we said. I love her very, very much and I will love her for the rest of my life.

April 3rd, 2011

    This vacation is pretty dull and there is really nothing that can be done about it. All that I can do in this break is prepare for college, prepare for my midterms, and prepare for the AP exams that are coming up. There is so much academic material that I have to cover and there is such little time for me to completely study all of them. I want to spend more time with her and I really want to be with her every moment of my life. It seems I don't have much time to spend with her during this vacation. She is uncomfortable and her parents won't allow her to go out anyways. I hope she feels better. I'm really, really worried about her and I can't think about anything else.