December 9th, 2010

    It was a very exciting day today and we did better in our basketball game. We has a score difference of 54 points in our last game against them but we were able to shorten the gap between us. We successfully decreased the gap between the two teams to 32 to points. It was a really good game and most of us played really well when we were on court. We are doing really well in terms of progress and aggression, but we still need to work a little harder on skills and endurance.
    Even though the whole team did really well today, I'm still quite upset with my own performance on the basketball court. I made several mistakes and I was running out of both energy and time to think properly.
    Some words to Karen: Thank you very much for going out with me for dinner. Hope we have more time together.

December 8th, 2010

    We're halfway through the week and we haven't gotten anything done. Miss Pamela didn't come today and we don't have any time left for our college applications. I really doubt that we would finish everything before the 15th of December. Difficulties we face in life are really tough and we don't seem to be able to pass through this one safely. We're losing all our time with Miss Pamela and she can't make it on Friday. She has to go to the school faculty party on Friday and none of us will have time to consult our college application with her. I really wonder if we will ever finish our college applications on time.
    Life is not easy and my body is being consumed very quickly. I'm sore all over my body and I don't know what I can do about it. It has been like this since sports day. I really don't know if I can play the basketball games in the upcoming days and I really wonder if I have enough energy to finish the college applications.

December 7th, 2010

    This is the last week that for me to do my college applications. I'm out of time. Out of the twelve schools that I have, I have only sent out two online applications with the SAT scores that were supposed to be sent a long time ago. I really wonder if I can finish all my applications on time. I really don't know what will happen for me in the future and I sincerely hope that I get admitted into a university in the United States. Nothing else except for finals, basketball, college application envelopes, essays, and her.
    I'm really worried about my first semester grades and I'm very worried about the finals that are going to occur before and after the Christmas break. The dates for the finals before the Christmas break are not yet set in stone and I'm really worried that I will mess up on these finals because I won't have sufficient time to study for them.
    Give me the strength and will to survive through these last few days. I want to get admitted into the colleges I am applying for and I really want to do well in all events of the first semester.

December 6th, 2010

    I'm lost. I know what I'm supposed to do but I'm reluctant to do it because I don't want to spend a second less with her. I don't know what I'm doing and I have no idea what I actually want. I hate being confused and I hate uncertainties. I can never focus when there are uncertain things that are bothering my mind. I have to play basketball games this week and next week, I have to finish four finals by this Friday, I have TOEFL this Saturday, and I have to finish all of my collage application essays by this end of this week. There's just so much stuff that I have to do and I really don't know whether I can finish all of these things.
    My body is really exhausted from sports day and I can't even walk properly right now. I wonder how we are going to play the upcoming basketball games and I wonder if I can actually finish all my college applications processes. I can't fail any of the finals if I want to get into a good university so I have to study really hard for them. I hope everything works out well.

December 5th, 2010

    I'm so exhausted and I'm so tired. I have so many bruises and it really is hurting like hell. I liked how sports day this year went, but I didn't put too much attention on the event. There were too many distractions that were around me. It was a pretty interesting day.
    I took the IELTS on Saturday and I'm slightly worried about the score I will receive, but I think the test went pretty smoothly. There are so many tests that I have to take in the upcoming days. I have to take the finals for all of my classes and I have to take the TOEFL next Saturday. There is just so much that is going on right now.
    The day went well until just now. I'm a little upset at how things are happening. I just hope this doesn't destroy the whole basketball team.

December 2nd, 2010

    It's the second day that Miss Pamela didn't come to school and I'm getting to the peak of anxiety. We only have six days left before we are supposed to send out all of our college application forms. I don't believe we will make it on time and I really hope Miss Pamela gets better. Nothings else more except for basketball, girls, and college application or else I would really mess up my life. Somebody gave me a link that really shocked me and I would like to share this link with everybody who is obsessed with computer games.

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=10150308316350456&oid=171185796234000&comments

    Don't ever regret any decision you make and don't ever waste your life on something that is unrealistic. Fight for what you want and fight to keep what you have.

December 1st, 2010

    My progress on the college application process is still very slow and I don't think I can keep up with the pace Miss Pamela is going at. I have to work harder and cut off all other activities for the next two weeks. I have to focus on my essays, my envelope, and my online application now. There can't be anything that can take off my attention. I must work for my future and I must get into a good college. There are things I have to pay off and this is the only way.

    Disappointment and shame. It's been four years since we first played them and we have just lost to them again. I must work harder and I must let them pay for what they did today. This is not going to just end like this.