February 28th, 2011

    Today was better than I thought, slightly better than I thought. We can still be together and I know for sure that we still love each other. Things aren't going as well because the juniors are getting more attention from Miss Pamela and the teachers. This means that we have to be more careful of our actions and the places that these actions occur. Things can't be as they were before and sometimes changes are necessary for continuation.
    I have so much calculus, again. I also have lots of other homework that I have to do and many tests that I have to prepare for. Things are going a bit over the limit and I don't think I can hold out very long. I have to get rid of all this homework and I want to rest. I want to stay with her and spend more time with her. I love you.

February 27th, 2011

    There is so much homework that I have to complete this weekend yet I have achieved so little. I still have three calculus assignments that I haven't started, I still have to make up the European History notes that I haven't handed in yet, and I still have to do the AP English essays. There's just so much that has to be done. I don't know why I feel so lazy this weekend, but I guess it's the basketball game on Friday that exhausted me. It wasn't that great a game and I didn't like the game at all. It was completely unreasonable and there was nothing I could do about it. I have to admit that I wasn't physically prepared for the game, but I knew what was going on. It's something that I still have to improve on, temper control.
    We're both tired and ill, yet homework is pushing down on us so much. I really can't handle the amount of homework I have. There is just so much. I hope I can quickly finish and quickly catch up with all the homework that I need to do. I'm really worried about her.

February 24th, 2011

    I really don't know why today is such a horrible day. She's experiencing extreme pain and I can't do anything about it. I feel really bad about this and I wish she gets better. I really hate not being able to help when she needs it. It makes me feel useless and she has to suffer even more. I got really mad at myself today for not being able to help her. I hate this feeling and I hate it a lot. I really don't want to go to the game tomorrow because I want to stay with her until she goes home. She needs to get more rest and her body is really weak right now. She has had a rough week and I don't want her to exhaust herself tomorrow.
    I love her and I don't want her to be unhappy. I don't want her to endure pain and I don't want her to worry over things she doesn't have to worry about. What can I do? Why am I so useless when she needs something from me? I want to know.

February 23rd, 2011

    It's 8:10 right now and I'm still at school. Well, I kind of expected that because I wanted to stay with her and eat dinner with her. I also want to wait for her to finish her science fair and go home. I don't want to go home before her. I want to make sure that she goes home safe. I'm losing my mind right now. There is so much homework that I have to do and there are so much things that I need to take care of. We have a game on Friday and we have to practice so intensely right now. We should both take a long rest this weekend. We are both tired and we should rest a bit. She has her problems and I have mine. I really don't want to leave her.
    I can't believe how much homework we have this weekend. I have so much AP English homework. Two essays and two essay outlines that I have to finish. I also have notes from three AP classes that are instructed by Mr. Jones. I also have lots of calculus homework which I really don't want to do. I'm really confused by math.

February 22nd, 2011

    It has been a long time since I fell asleep in calculus class. I don't understand why I am so tired recently, but I know I need to get some more rest. I need to be more energetic and I need to get ready for the game on Friday. Well, what I want to do the most is to be more energetic when I stay with her. I got really tired after practicing basketball with Mr. Lee today. I played pretty well today, but there are still improvements that can be made. I really want to play basketball at a higher level, so I must improve my personal skills.
    There are also many other things that went well today. I'm getting a hold of the concepts in calculus and I'm doing better in the class. I hope my grades in calculus can improve and I hope that all of my other grades could be improved as well. I had a splendid afternoon today. It was wonderful yet it was short. I love her.

February 21st, 2011

    What a long and tiring day. I really want to lie down and fall asleep right now, but I have so much homework that I have to do. There are lots of calculus homework, lots of European History homework, and lots of homework that was just assigned today. I don't want to do anything right now except do spend time with her. I only have a few months left in Taiwan and I really want to spend all the time I have with her. I really don't know. I'm lost.
    There is a poetry contest that will be held in a few weeks, there is a science fair this Wednesday, and there will be basketball games going on both this week and next week. There are so many activities and so much homework, yet so little time. Basketball practice was pretty rough for me today and I think I will need some time to recover from the injuries taken today.

February 20th, 2011

    I don't feel good right now and I'm stressed out by the amount of homework I have to do on the weekend. I have so much AP Calculus homework I have to do, I have AP Government notes I have to do, I have AP Psychology reading notes I have to do, and I have so much AP European History reading notes that I have to do. I'm pretty mad at somebody for invading into someones privacy and then laughing at them. I feel like going boxing right now. There is this rage and there is nowhere to release it. Why give me more trouble when you know I'm already in so much stress?
    That's the bad news and here's the good news. I got into UIUC and I got the notice this Saturday. I pretty excited about getting into UIUC and my parents are also very happy. I had a wonderful day this Saturday. From the UIUC admission to the date in the afternoon, everything was wonderful. I really hope everyday of my life could be like this Saturday.