December 30th, 2010

    It's strange for me to wake up this early during the holidays, especially after playing basketball for four hours. I woke up at seven this morning because of some nightmare, but I can't really recall what actually occurred in the dream. The only elements that I remember from the dream are death and loneliness. It was a dark dream, both in its context and its meaning. I know I'm troubled by something right now, but I don't believe that something so simple would shock me.
    Things aren't going very well for me today. I've been doing so many chores and I'm getting a little frustrated at my mom. I really don't like how she want to control every little detail about my life and I hate how she tries to exert her control.
    There are several other reasons that constituted my bad day. I'm not gaining any weight and it's almost the end of the holiday. My skin is also getting too dry and there are wounds all over my hands. I don't like how the day is going, I just want to go to bed.

December 29th, 2010

    I woke up today not knowing what was going to happen. It was as if the whole day was composed of surprises and unexpected events. I woke up at around 10:30 in the morning not knowing what I was supposed to do, so I did some calculus homework. It was not long before I realised that the basketball team was having practice at two in the after at UMC. It was a sudden call up but I made it to UMC at around 2:20 after eating a very quick lunch.
    I never knew playing basketball could be that interesting. It has been a long time since I shot three point shots. I really miss the feeling you get when you make them.
    I left UMC  at around six thirty and went to eat dinner with my family. I barely did anything after eating dinner. The day just ended like that without anything major happening.
    I really miss her though. She isn't online and she isn't picking up the phone. She is probably too tired and well asleep. Let me leave her some peace tonight.

December 28th, 2010

    Today was a pretty amazing day. Many things happened and there were many special memories that were created today. It was the first time we went out alone that didn't happen around school. We went out to the movies together and it was amazing. Interaction between us increased and the relationship between us seemed to change. I really don't know the actual status of our relationship, but I'm sure I really want to know.
    Things aren't going well though. We don't have much time together and I really want to spend more time with her. Even though I want to spend more time with her, it doesn't seem very possible at the moment. She is in the second semester of her junior year and she has to prepare for SATs and college application essays.
    Things in life never go as you want them to go.

December 27th, 2010

    Today was a really strange day. Things didn't go as well as planned but it didn't seem as if I missed out as much of today as I expected. The basketball team was supposed to practice at UMC this morning, but I overslept. Practice was supposed to start at nine but I slept until 10:30. I really wanted to go to today's practice session because the whole team was going as well as Mr. Rick and some alumni form PAS. Today's practice is a big event but I missed out on it. I kind of regret not waking up early enough, but that's just how life is. Things just don't go as they want you to go, but life seems to compensate you in some strange way.
    I also went to Costco today, which was a very pleasant experience. My family spent 8200 NT on food, beverages, fruits, drinks, and laundry detergent. It was a really happy period of time that I spent with my family. Looking back at this past semester, I figured I haven't spent much time with my family. Maybe that's what I should focus on now, before I go to college.

December 26th, 2010

    It's the alumni party today and I'm not very certain about what will happen today. I woke up like nothing was going to happen today and got ready for the alumni party in a hurry. I arrived at the location and I was a few people there. More and more PAS alumni arrived and talking started up everywhere. There were so many faces that I haven't seen for so long. I was really happy to see these people come back. The alumni shared their experiences in college and I had a better understanding of how college life.
    Nothing else really happened today. Well, I was deeply bothered by one thing. The essay that we were supposed to write for our winter holiday. I wrote until two o'clock in the morning before I went to bed. It was a really brain consuming essay.

December 23th, 2010

    Today is a very wonderful day. Well, a somewhat wonderful one at least. I got my TOEFL scores today, I bought a really nice novel, I played basketball with a whole bunch of people, and I went to lunch with so many people that were once in our school. We gathered up at UMC this morning to play basketball and to improve basketball skills. We also met up to socialize and talk about how college life worked. Albert, Ching, Wilson, Alex, Eugene, Jolio, and Young were all alumni that I met today. I'm really glad that I met these people today because I got a better understanding of how college life is and I'm getting more anxious about going to college.
    Cleaning was the other big part of my day today. We were cleaning our old bookshelves today and I was so tired that I can barely move my hands now. Moving whole stacks of books around a house isn't a very easy task and it is energy consuming. I really want to go to bed and get a good night sleep, but I still have somebody I'm waiting for online.

December 22th, 2010

    It was a really tiring day today. I had to do cleaning until eleven o'clock at night. Even though there wasn't much to clean, it still took me a long time because it was all stuff from the past that I didn't want to throw away. Those were objects that contained my childhood memories, memories that I didn't to throw away. Even though I wanted to keep these memories, they had to go. There was no longer enough room in the house to keep these old objects because more and more documents and papers had to be preserves for future reference. There is a really amazing feeling when it comes to viewing old objects that one once possessed. You feel as if you are living your life again and you feel a sensation that is hard to explain to other people. I just love going through old stuff and living through my life again.
    Tomorrow is going to be a really busy day because I have so many activities that I have to do. I have to play basketball in the morning, eat lunch with a whole bunch of friends, clean the house in the afternoon, type an essay at night, and try keep in touch with her throughout the whole day. I just hope I can make it.