March 9th, 2011

    I feel very upset right now. We don't spend enough time in school and we don't even have time after school has ended. Things are not going very well for us and I really don't like how we have to be afraid of other people. We are taught to be unique and creative in our school, but the school also places limits on what we do and how we do things. Even if I face difficulties now, I love her and I will never give her up. We have so much to do in preparation for Russia and I have so much homework. I also have to go to school tomorrow to take an AP exam and I also have to get myself ready for the basketball game next week on the 15th.

March 8th, 2011

    Today is a really tiring day for me. The game was long and hard and I got into a little argument with her. I really want to do as she says but I'm slowly deviating away from what she wants me to do. I love her and I'll do everything her way. If that's something that she wants, I will try my best to do it. I'm really worried right now. She's on her bed and she doesn't have her blanket on. I'm worried that she will get a cold. I'm really worried. Today's game was pretty good. We lost by three points by a scored my career high. Eight points today. We should have won the game. We were so close to victory but it slipped by. I guess we just have to work harder.

March 7th, 2011

    Today was almost as relaxing as ever. I barely did any homework and I'm not even putting my head into class and school. All I want to do is to spend time with her and enjoy life. I really don't know what is going wrong inside me, but I do know that I really want to spend more time with her. All the time I have to spare is the time I want to spend with her. I just hope god is on our side. I need help, whatever sort of help that I can get.
    Now I'm really worried about my Calculus class. I haven't handed in many assignments and I really need to do better on my tests. I need help on CALCULUS. I feel kind of bad for letting my teachers down with bad grades. I must work harder, but it seems kind of hard.

March 6th, 2011

    Things happen suddenly and time is flying by. Why does time always seem to move faster when we are happy? Why can't we do anything about it? I wish I had the ability to change time and look through time. I made several mistake in my life and I finally see their consequences right now. If I had the chance to go back in time, I would have taken the other path. The path that would allow me to stay with her for a longer period of time. I love her. I don't ever want to leave her. I don't regret making my choice to be with her and I never will regret this.

March 3rd, 2011

    Wow! I never knew playing the drums was so hard, especially when you're playing with a whole group of people. Things come suddenly and you just have to deal with them. I've got to start practicing how to play with drum with other people. There are thirty five songs that I have to learn and I only have a few months to learn all of them. This is a real pain that I have to deal with. I have to prepare for MUN , practice basketball, do my academic work, and deal with my relationship issues. So much to do and so little to enjoy from.
    Things are really bad right now and I'm feeling a sense of change. Something is going to go wrong, but I don't know what it is. I tired, but I will endure all of this for one simple reason; it makes me feel as I have a purpose to live on. It is my reason for existence and I know that there is no way for me to give this up.

March 2nd, 2011

    I'm falling asleep and I'm seriously tired today. This sentence was typed 50 minutes after the first one. I fell asleep. I'm seriously tired today. Things just aren't going well for me this week. I have basketball practice, I have musical practice, I have five AP classes that I have to deal with, and I still have to worry about her a lot. Why isn't she picking up the phone right now? I'm pretty worried that she'll get into more trouble with her parents.
    I don't know what homework I have today, but I do know that there are a few assignments that I have to complete. I have AP Government, lot of AP Calculus, AP Psychology, AP English, and lot and lots of AP European History. I want to go to bed early today!!!! I really need a good sleep. I need a long and good sleep.

March 1st, 2011

    Today was a pretty tiring day and I think this week would be a pretty tiring week. I really don't want to do anything else except for sharing time with her and playing basketball. This doesn't feel like second semester of senior life and I really don't like the fact that things are going out of hand for the two of us. I really hate it when other people nose into the business of other people. Why do we have to suffer from the words of other people? Life isn't fair. I know it isn't. I just don't understand why it has to be us that life is unfair to. This is really painful. Even though times may seem difficult for us right now, I will love her forever and I don't ever want us to be separated.
    Essays, notes, and tests. There are so many assignments that I have to complete before tomorrow. To be more exact, before I go to bed. I better get going on the homework because I don't think I can make it before tomorrow.